The Beginning of the End

La Luz de Jesus Gallery

4633 Hollywood Blvd,

Los Angeles, CA 90027

January 2025

Beginning of the End: 

Artist’s Statement:

3:30am  standing outside a motel west of Denver with my husband clutching my 2 year old.  No sign of him, being such an ungodly hour should have brought some tranquility to that half empty parking lot but instead it  had an uneasy energy including a manchild on top of a Buick with the windows  down.   I had an awful  realization “Do you think we will ever go back”?   “Of course we will”.  We never did.   
Behind me, a fire on its way to growing to 200,000 acres I hadn’t even noticed until that moment, all my attention taken by the insidious danger that had been to my door that night.  The three of us left that motel the next morning, it was raining ash, the mountains were pink / orange, and our clothes stunk like the motel and cheap chemical soap.  I don’t know who the person was in that car with my husband and daughter that morning, it wasn’t me.  It wasn’t the silly woman who cracks up at Reductress memes, or spent years nesting and building a house for my daughter.  I was wearing a mask, so that I could be anything.   In that moment I was simply someone that didn’t want to die,  hitting the open road buckled up with no destination and starting what ended up being a love story (kind of).